career coaching has ended..
i still havent received a firm direction from God,
but i trust in Him.
In His time, He will show me.
i am in zero mood to post words,
the girls know what went through while all these photos were taken so i don't think there is a need for words then.
Headed over to Yoshinonya for lunch,
bought plums with ting
then headed for work.
12 Nov - Dinner @ Work
very hungry! like very very hungry!
and so i took a big bowl filled it up wif
rice & all the side dishes i like
MINE!
the BBQ pork with fats & lean meat
YUMMY!!
the soup with cabbage, mutton & vermicelli
SUPERB!!
horrible.. .. ..
the chef was saying,
"娶老婆要娶新加坡的。看她多会吃"
and the guys at my right side all turned to look at me.
i was like "WHAT, where have?"
then i turned to look at my left side where the girls are,
and i realized
ya, i am the only Singaporean there
and i am the only female who is eating same as the chefs, with a 大碗
-.-
I AM HUNGRY LA!
not my fault =x
and i really regretted not taking a bowl to scoop the soup out instead i 直接 drink from the big bowl
1. no hygiene even though no one seems to mind
2. drinking straight from the big bowl only makes me have no self control. i kept drinking like there is no end!
FATSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!
think that is all?
No, 怎么可能。she is jaslyn, not other Normal girls.
because it is a Wednesday, around 10 plus there was nothing to more be done.
the outlet at Jurong Bird Park is opening soon,
one of the uncle chef is transferring over,
and so Peter & uncle make use of this time in coming up designs for the desserts.
was a HORRIBLE TORTURE for me la!!!
suggested to design the desserts then uncle can see better
but smart Peter say cannot.
if design means have to eat = waste
BLAH! =x
smart Peter kindly brought out chocolates that he has bought earlier.
Low Fat Chocolate w Nuts
NOT creamy, not very sweet. NICE! =)
Praise Lord!!!
he is so so SO SOOOO loving!
somehow He has opened up their hearts
& blessed me with desserts!
uncle decided to try out 1 dessert
and oh man, can you imagine how THRILLED i was?!?!!
^^
peter showing uncle how to design the plate
placed the 主角 on top
next waffle biscuit up
Peter trying very VERY hard to open the lid of the cherry..
Peter & Uncle still trying hard to open up the stubborn lid
FINALLY, uncle managed to open the lid up
and he was so proud =)
The Final Product
very Happy & blessed Jaslyn with the plate of desserts =)
i told myself,
warned myself,
commanded myself
to LEAVE STRAIGHT after work.
NO SUPPER!
but when i saw the food,
and the time was still early,
and and the food really seemed to be calling me,
begging me to eat them.
How can nice jaslyn reject them
and make them upset?
BLAH! =x
Supper @ Work
the spread
the fried noodles with crab meat, bacons & many other ingredients
Superb-ly!
the seafood spicy & beancurd soup
can drive u up the wall!
told myself not to eat,
ended up ate.
okay, eat never mind
but what terrible is,
i eat not only 1 each plate & bowl,
i ate 2!!!
2 plates of fried noodles,
2 bowls of the soup
ARGHHHH
the stuff bought at Umeya
the containers took from SU to put my plums
$2 100 gram Plums
$3.80 100 gram Dried Cranberries
Our Father in Heaven,
i am really SICK & TIRED of myself!
i hate myself,
i hate my temper.
Father, you promised that whatever ask and it shall be given.
why Father?
i prayed and asked you to take control of me,
i gave myself to you,
trusting that you will change me.
but why Father?
why i still remain the same?
why i have no patience towards other people esp towards my parents?
i hang up their phone when i know i should not.
i know the reason they keep calling is because of worries,
because they do not know and believe that you will protect me when i walking home after work in late night.
Father, teach me to be patient.
Help me to understand their feelings & be sensitive.
Do not let my anger, impatience take over me.
For You, Father, You are greater.
Father, my dear dear Heavenly Father,
yes, i am demanding,
yes, i am spoilt.
Yes, i demand an immediate answer,
immediate change,
immediate response from You whenever i asked.
But Father, thank you,
thank you Father for opening up my hearts,
showing me how silly i am,
trying to change You.
trying to play God,
asking You, demanding You to do whatever i ask.
Father, i am sorry.
i know you have forgiven me because of your precious son, Jesus.
Father, my dear dear Father,
i trust in You,
i trust in Your plans.
Your plan is not my plan
Your will is not my will
Your time is not my time
thank you for showing me that me, myself & i will NEVER allow me to grow closer with you,
will NEVER allow me to love you more.
Father,
i am Yours, now and forever more.
i will turn to You in whatever things i do,
i know that Father whatever things that happened to me,
is a blessing from You.
yes, it might be good, it might be bad,
but the bad i believe is good in Your plans.
For You Father, You would not want anything bad for Your children.
You would give Your children much more things.
Your Gracious, Merciful Never Failing love is where i will abound in..
In your son Jesus name i pray,
Amen.
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