17 Nov - 1st part

okay, i need prayers!
i need Jesus more than ever now!!

i have no idea why ytd night after dinner at uncle house,
my head suddenly super super pain.
the pain was something i have not felt it for years!
and when i reached home after heading to jurong point,
it feels like the devil attacked me!
for no reason, i feel SUPERLY irritated & uncomfortable!
ARGHHHH!!!
there is no words available to describe e uncomfy-ness
but it is really really taking away my breath,
my strength
my faith,
my patience,
my hope,
my peace,
EVERY PRECIOUS THING!!!
and no matter how much,
how hard i tried in proclaiming,
it helps only for a few mins,
the devil won ultimately.
oh no no no.. .. ..
and best of all,
this morning,
Praise Lord,
head no longer that pain but the anger,
the sin is still in me.
and i allowed the devil to take over me.
i shouted,yelled at my parents,
i said many many sarcastic remarks to my parents.
oh no no no.. .. ..
i know it is WRONG but i cannot control my anger,
my words!
ARGH!
but Praise Lord,
by turning to Him,
seeking His word,
it somehow calmed me down,
and when i reached sch,
i called them to apologize.
and i even told them this shows how much the 3 of us needs Jesus to change us,
to set us free,
to make us happy.

Our Father in Heaven,
have mercy on me.
have mercy on your daughter.
do not, please do not turn away from me.
do not, please do not give me over to the devil,
to my sins.
Hold me close to you Father, my precious Father.
Father, i need you.
i need you, you are all i want.
i need your strength,
i need your right hand to hold me through this.
Father, hear me.
and in your son Jesus name i pray,
Amen.

i can't wait for my Quiet Time with Him!!!